I don’t think
I’m here at all.
I can’t believe
Anything I do is real.
I can’t seem to get to know
Anybody involved.
If I do I don’t believe I know them.
I can’t believe anything anybody’s done is real,
Or possible,
Or true.
I admire my heroes without believing they were ever heroic.
I know so much about so many other countries
And cultures
And animals and environments
…I don’t believe they exist.
To me, my life is so disjointed, so unsensical
I refuse to believe any of it is part of me.
There are so many unforgivably blatant lies,
So many obvious answers to questions…
I can’t accept anything.